A poets heart a thousand miles away

I'm a citizen in a lovely island of Saipan.

Where the beauty lays on the sunset beds

passing by quickly in the day.

When it rains,all we do everyday

on that day was think of the soldiers who are fighting

there way out and come home safely.

See your kids and scream hooray!

Don't let the war get in your way.

Win it and live a happy life,

see the morning as you feel so alive

Walk no path alone.

We feel safe

and no worries here

Thanks to you , you make it better

even if you're there.

You still be in our hearts so dear

and respectfully every single day,

There isn't time to give up faith.

This poem is from a  boy who is a poet,

who sent his heart from thousands of miles away.

Walk into to your child's   room

surprise and what a surprise you give him or her

as they ran and jump into your arms wide open and hugged.

You  gazed into the heavens and say

"thank you for making me see my  children today".

Our hopes and prayers still drip to the sandy dirt's of the unknown lands you were commenced to.

This poem is from me to you.

Stay strong and stand tall!

By: Christian Manzanares

Starlight

so im outside

laying out in the starlight
looking for the star we both pointed out that one night
at memorial in that one spotlight
i actually start talking to that one tiny light
saying how kind and sweet it is how its so bright
do you remember that night
that night he held me so tight
as he whispered in my ear words so right?
do you remember how you that small light
brought and still made everything alright
no matter how dark you still were the only light
to make all his doings alright
so i ask you tonight
to watch over him with all your might
to make sure he sleeps so tight
kiss him with those sparks of light
hum to him the i love you's of the night
and whisper in the wind to him of my love so right
christian i love you tonight
i think of you each and every night
and if you need some light
in the darkess night
just look up every night
ill be that starlight
just to make things feel so right
and ill be with you each and every night
no matter the darkest nights
ill still be there that lil starlight
il be in you dreams tonight
as that spark of light shines so bright
i;ll be that starlight
watching you each and every night
Reason: i miss you soo much and i wish i could be with u everyday and night
To: My BF Christian Manazanares

Your the twinkles of a star

Twinkle twinkle  like a star
up in the dark sky
not to far
your my baby
and part of my heart
Even if I sore
you are mine to adore
through the hardship and through metal doors
we together come by
nothing to be afraid or to be shy
I'm here to make you shine like a star
girl you are my little star
that I wish on every night
you stay where you are
never change sides
nor position
your better as you are now
I don't care if you are far
I'm still standing from a distance and still
hear your heart 
your love is like a kyrptonite
I fall to my knees with great passion
not caring of the dangers that lurks in presents
We wish on each other to last for ever
your my star that twinkles in the sky
your like a diamond in the night
Your lovely shine tinkles my soul
you are the twinkles of a star.
I love you...

by:christian M.
reason: thoughtful to be with you
 to: My GF Allison M.

I Pinky Swear...

date: oct 22 2010
for all those promises we made together

i love you for keeping them cause you make it better

everytime i look at you i just smile,think and tear up a lil

i smile cus were together i think cause i wna keep dat memory and i tear up because im happy that were

almost half way throught the middle

almost half a year together and my love grows stronger n stronger

no matter how much problems come our way we manage to get out of it together

i love you christian i pinky swear that

i still remember that beenie that red hat

its how i found you the first day like that

but even without the hat i could find you just like that

you make my tummy fill up with butterflies

you make my smile because we tell no lies

you make my heart race like that feeling you get after running nonstop but a gazillion enfinite times more

you make me think you make me see the brighter things in life even wen the tears pour

you manage to keep me intacked when no one else could

it may come back a few times but not as often cus i know you would

you would tell me how everything really is and how you love me

remember that promise we had at the beach in fall

i cried and i refuse to let u do it cus i promised no matter what i wudnt hurt u in any way at all

remembe those promises between phone calls and text msgs

remember how we love to finish eachother sentences

you make my life better each and every time i read that letter

of how my favorite made things for me better

but one promise one pinky swear that i always remember

it dangles from my neck every mornig till night till the next day after

i look at it everyday you know the one i can wear on my finger?

i remember losing it once and goin crazy crying looking for it

begging god to help me find it

and i did i cried when my ceramics teacher pulled out of the slip next to the wheel ive always used it

he was doin a demonstration of how you shud check ur slip before applying it

and there he pulled out a lump a small lump

so concious about the ring that i asked without him cleaning it at all if it was a ring

he smiled and i cried and he handed it to me

i put it back on my necklace made sure to look at the mirror n that i was wearing it , me

see that promise was for not only me but us

7 years of friendship seven years n on for our relationship

this ring this promise ring told me everyday that i have someone who loves me

someone i can go to, hold on too ,think about ,someone that loves me for me

someone who takes care of me ,took my heart ,fixed it and loved it ,took my feelings n made solutions

saw my tears n kissed them away ,saw me sweat n wiped my face, someone who gave me a shoulder to cry

or wen i needed my confidence to boost up someone who i can actually say i fell in love with

someone who devoted his time to me just one that someone who made me feel like this

and how lucky i am to have him after years of searching

my favorite my babez my honey bunz my love my sweetie pie my swexay mexi mr waffles XD my everything

i admit i can be nonsense at times irrisponisible ,cautious about myself and get a lil annoying if i over do my cuteness voice..

but i know you understand that and how sorry i am if i do it at times where u just dont wana hear noise

i love you so much christian i pinky swear that

By: Allison Madamba

Reason: got into a lil fyt tonyt 0ct22 n i luked at the ring on my neck n i remembered our pinky swear i love you babez i miss u soo much

Written:0ct 22 2010

Life

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. 

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy, or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song, or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of a daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before becomes fascinating because you know they are important to this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possible soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

- Unknown

founder: Sherish Nestor

Hold My hand till the End!

We walk this path with our hands in hold

We keep this promise and will forever keep it like stones,

Engraved in empty pens

i know its hard to know that

life isnt so fair.

but that we can always be together

even if the sky falls on us

i will always keep the fire going,

never to early to let our sun be the power

of our lives.

I will always be touched and always hold you till the end

if we break up you would be the left over ink in my pen

to finish writing my story

no need to rush or be in a hurry

you are always there though my vision was blurry

you cleared it all like a window wipe

first time to make me cry and worry me to the dying breath

of my sigh

listen closely as you hear my whispering voice

tickling the inside of your ears already breaking a tear

my heart drags across the room like it was the edge of a peer

suddenly falls off but you hold on to it tightly

making you want to break a tear when already my love is already smeared on your

lovely hands which we hold till the end.

The End

By: Christian Manzanares
Reason: Thinking of YOU

I will Not Fall!

EMINEMEMINEM
EMINEMEMINEM
EMINEMEMINEM
EMINEM
EMINEM
EMINEMEMINEM
EMINEMEMINEM
EMINEMEMINEM
EMINEM
EMINEM
EMINEMEMINEM
EMINEMEMINEM
EMINEMEMINEM


I WILL NOT FALL FROM MY HEAD TO TOE
I WILL STAND TALL
AS LONG AS I AM TOUCHING THE CEILING I WILL BE THE ONE
TO FEEL WHAT YOU ARE FEELING
PAIN, HATE,SAD, OR DEPRESS.
I WOULD BE THE ONE TO COMPRESS ALL THOSE TOGETHER AND EAT IT ALL UP
AND WILL NEVER THROW UP BECAUSE I HAVE NO STOMACH FLU JUST FOR YOU.
BEING THE ONE TO CATCH THE BULLETS FOR YOU
ITS A MIRACLE TO GO SLOW MOTION ON THOSE WHO TOUCHES YOU
BREAK THEIR NECKS, AND SHATTER THEIR BONES IT
WILL BE A PLEASURE FOR ME TO SEE EM CRY LIKE A BITCH
WHO COULDN'T CALL FOR HELP
THEY SHOUT BUT NO ONE COULD HEAR EM BLEED OR WHINE
THEY'RE IN MY EYE LIKE THE THIRD EYE
TO SEE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE COULD NOT SEE
I WILL NOT FALL UNTIL MY DAYS COME IN ALL
I FEEL LIKE NO ONE CAN BEAT ME
NOT WITH A BAT NOR A BULLET
THE ONLY WAY IS TO KILL ME BUT CAN'T,
DEATH IS IN EVERY VERSE FROM THE START TO THE REWIND OR REVERSE
I COME IN TOGETHER WITH PRIDE TO SEND MY HELL ARMY TO THEIR LIVING LIFE
BRING THEM DOWN LIKE NOTHING BUT THE FEATHER OF AN EAGLE
WHAM HERE COMES THE SINNER TO BEHEAD EVERY SNITCHER
HERE COMES THE COLLAPSE BRINGER.
I AINT NO WINNER JUST A DAMN CREMATOR
DOMINATOR OF THE WORLD SATANS HELL MAKER.
I WILL NOT FALL...
I WILL STAND TALL...
IT FEELS LIKE NO ONE COULD BEAT ME...
UNTIL ME MY LEGS GIVE OUT UNDERNEATH ME!


this is for the motha f****ers who messes with my girl!

By: Christian Waffles Manzanares
Instrumental: Till I Collapse, Eminem

He is our only hope

He was the one who brought us to this world

he was the one who created our oceans,

land and territory

He should help because he's our only hope to live the longest

to give everyone a chance to move on and step onto this beautiful world

but then he got us worried because we believe the end of the world is coming,

not to see it happening is it true

is fake or does it build up as a fact,

I am also scared because I want to die of age not by pain

its been so much horror to see wars cover the news

with anger and madness with also sadness

we want our soldiers back

not in crates or flags

 not also in bodybags

we need them to come home with no arms missing just the heart missing for their families

Who should be sorry because this war will end our humanity,

some say 2k12 isnt real how do we know?

is it the war that will send out nuclear warheads to destroy our homes and leave everyone dead.

Why Mr. President why must this war go on is it a plan that you will kill us with a single bang through the head or a blown shrapnel to the brain

this little world can't be a game it's real not fake

I will believe in a God if he spares us atleast another 50 years

I will love and care

or even share just give us a chance because

you are our only hope to live...

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: End is near? no? yes? maybe? never....

WARPED & TWISTED

Harsh words & violent blowsHidden secrets nobody knowsEyes are open, hands are fistedDeep inside I'm warped & twistedSo many tricks & so many liesToo many whens & too many whysNobody's special, nobody's giftedI'm just me, warped & twistedSleeping awake & choking on a dreamListening loudly to a silent screamCall my mind, the number's unlistedLost in someone so warped & twistedOn my knees, alive but deadLook at the invisible blood I've bledI'm not gone, my mind has driftedDon't expect much, I'm warped & twistedBurnt out, wasted, empty, & hollowToday's just yesterday's tomorrowThe sun died out, the ashes siftedI'm still here, warped & twisted

By: Selah Kama
Reason: thoughtful too :P

My Island My People!

Kill the rain with a bullet,

if you can show me how you made it

through this day without dying

did you cheat or did you go home crying 

so tell me, if you care or not

just look me in the eye and say this is all you've got

with this words or with my 9mm pistol I have in my hand

don't let me pull the trigger

blow your fucking fingers

let it bleed no matter the crimes i commit

I still will never forfeit

to dis day I will remember the name

that I carved in my bullet

this aint math 

couldnt be a congruent or equal

to reality

this is crazy

this is life

don't run away

just face it

live it

feel it

through the veins 

I make dis day a praying day

or a dying night

funeral in the middle of the war

kids crying, dying

no more sighing

tired of you bitches seeing this massacre 

make it stop don't let it occur 

you made it rain blood

you made this sick ass day go in dust

left without a trace

thats wat i thought to every pace

Make this day a praying day

or a dying night

people crying, dying 

no more sighing

this time it's real to my eyes

I seek no revenge

just vengeance

break your heart if I have to 

it's the only way out of this

massacre 

don't let me pull the trigger

I will blow your fucking fingers

this aint a rap or a story

this how it goes in every morning.

Please Jesus be my savior

for now and more to come

protect my island from the enemies

no matter the cause

no matter what I use to kill the people

who steps into my home

I'd take a shovel and shove it down their throats

dig a hole to their place and blow their fuckin face

with a sound off shutgun

silence I hear

death and fear

I aint scared

I am powerful

I am strong

with out my people 

I am weak as stones

but when thrown

I am known!

a message to you and a message to all!

Remember me as a boy

and a teen

we work as a team

be my loyal friends

and I'll let your journey begin

Follow me

be with me

when it rains

I know what to say

please be part of my people every day

and make it rain

not blood but peace 

I follow my leader

but not at all sometimes

I deal with my own problems

government can't help but help himself

weak and a fag

don't treat us like rags

we live in a small island you gotta know that

so be there and or be square

because life isnt over

until I say so it is

never will until I die and leave

and beat the air in a race

I go in space

look down and all I see is my island and my people

this day is our praying day

because our president needs to say

freedom is all we wanted

even others and the whole world

we treat each other like sisters and brothers

be with me and my island and my people!

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: thoughtful

A Dream Reviewed For You

Boom! Crash* blood everywhere on my hands and face

too  much noise i hear screaming but all i can think of is keeping my pace

i turn to a building that had already been demolished

just to take cover i pull out my gun praying not to be abolished

i think to myself before going out there

how many wars will it take before the people of earth make things fair

i get up switch positions to get a better angle

"its time for a change" sign drops infront of me,as it dangles

"Lifes never fair" i guess war will never end

its becoming a trend

i come out into the open area ready to fire

i come out and all i see is light it felt like my time had expire

then i hear someone talking as i sit on a stage being honored

i looked beside me as christian and my family awards me with the silver cord

i stand up and recite a poem an old friend had told me

""well lets pretend that we dont have to pretendthe world coming to an end is just another threatto fret about a trend that everyone be following nowwe loosing all sense of originality who you imitating now?what constitutes the modern movement that graffiti is a crimea beating on the mind yet another reason to spread my words through my eyesthe lack of intel misleading accusationsblame it on the fact there's too much freedom on this worldand i quote mr president "its time for a change"time for a change it was long over duetryna deny the truth and keep your dignity intact toowhile we approach at worlds endmind over matteri start to see life as a realm portraying nothing but fictionbut what we want it to be our little fantasythat contradicts the laws of societyand your personal well being might be at stakewhile you wishing airplanes be shooting stars in the night sky to right your mistakesor another barrier you cant seem to surpass and takethat extra step needed to approach level greatnesswell wasted oppurtunites that be thrown to your chestinquisite master lyricist bout to go bomb on your parade-I.L""

i wake up and walk right to the mirror

and i saw my image of a soldier

it blurs out as i hold a picture of my family on one hand and my dogtags on the other

and i ask myself will i put myself through this will i ever bother?

i think of my future and my reason to join"for the experience ofcourse"

but my first dream was too cook and to be in the medical field course

i talk to a good friend he told me that "you have a better future dont ruin it being like me"

"think of all your friends whose lives been taken by some crazy person who had nothing to live for but kill soldiers for no reason at all"me,

think of me i was your best friend you didnt approve of me as in infantry men

i was killed by own crew to save my whole crew

dont put yourself in this like you said at my funeral"i smile at his funeral cause i know his in a better place where nothing can hurt him anymore"

"allison you are my best friend you've allways been so please dont go for this anymore"

i finally wake up crying, thinking of how my mom felt and how my loving boyfriend broke to tears of me leaving

it killed me so I  decided to write it down and tell you

By: Allison Madamba

Reason:dreamt of it again

My Dream Again

I wake up,
I walk to the mirror to see what is the differ
between me and the man in the mirror
thinking its all just another person with no fingers
But I look closely and see it's me standing no where
in the desert,
Nothing behind me just the yellow sand in my hands
held it tight and it blows away
catching it piece by piece I hold it in with peace
I clutched it deep and tightly
I open it and see nothing
just the wet tears of my eyes and believe it was a dream.
I can't stand the shit that pulls me down to the core
maybe one day I will bring down everybody's door and pull em out
 when they're trap in a house with nothing to do
just sit around and watch whats on the news, well now it ends
it's time to get up and defend your own ground
fight for whats right
doesnt matter if you change the channel it still be the same'
you make the change
don't let this crumble up because this is it what they made
for us to suffer
to much problems
is it already enough we have to bother our own fathers for child support
because we didnt get through school
he said it was a piece of cake
that's him not him being me for me
I went through so much also not like butter, or jelly
just like holding a sweet touch of my baby that's inside of my own girlfriend
I kiss it and say
"there is nothing to fear daddy's here, always will be even
if this world kills us I'll still stand on one feet".
This is what I dreamnt on the 1st month of our relationship...
It was nice made me cry.
I love you.

By Christian Manzanares

Reason: To much thoughts hehe

Not Alone Not Afraid

Hello everybody

I am here to show you wat I be about.

to let the world know I am somebody

who would stand for himself.

Even if the cold world leads to the end  of a curled string,

I still want to sing for my heart and feel the hurricane beat but I cant see

what I have to believe that our world comes down like a dead sea

My mother told she loved me but I can't make a promise because

you trusted me.

please let me be and see what it all means but I am never afraid of the dark

never to scared to fight with my heart.

It's okay baby I am here for you

even if the world comes down on you

I'll hold it up and be the one to bring you

together and up again,

to show you our peaceful earth in heaven

please hold my hand.

Listening to the instrumentals of my favorite rapper 

makes me feel like I could live forever

being not afraid to wake up and see the day

with clouds covering the sun and the rain comes down 

and each rain drop says your name and always think you would be the one

which is true.

I love you for what you are and do

never to afraid if you break it or not

you'll still be in my clutched hands to prevent our world from reaching dawn

Your my sweet one and be the one to keep me from breaking down

so let me know when you need someone to keep close

I be the pillow and you be the tears that spill on the bed sheets of my bed,when

you were troubled and scared to be led alone

never walk alone, i'll hold you and bring you safely home

I hope this poem/lyrics means to you alot Ms.Waffles

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: missing you

Instrumental: Not Afraid, Eminem

the instrumental brought me into writing this poem for you.

By Iamundergrace from Youtube

these niggas swear they a click, they on top of my nuts, like hair on my dick, best beware of the clip, it'll hit 4 bitches, if u aint aware of this shit, n yall scared like a bitch, i break many strongholds, faster than a bronco, fuck bennyblanco, ill let this bomb blow, anyone in the vicinity, will know i am the sum of inifinty, u aint shit 2 me, u aint fit 4 me, i spit debree, that rips mc's, ill never quit n flee, i see shit differently, u a wimp 2 me

Lost My Friend (What would've Happened)

Dear Friend

I hope you are wandering why I never call

it's just that you were never home when I needed someone

to talk to when I am being abused by all this shit

All those things people say to you 

your just being lied too

I am not okay just remember, you told me that praying would get god to know 

what I am saying 

when I am left crying in the rain with no one to come and say 

It'll be fine when ever you die they would miss you but that shit is a lie

you make me cry... why, why did you leave me in a blistering cold 

with people beating me down like a heartless soul

you made me happy but now you made me crazy

insane and also stupid what the fuck did you do to me!

You were and was my friend just hope my words would make you pretend

that you are happy but you're not just disguising your sad face from the life you enjoy and have

while I sleep in this casket I have....

By :Christian Manzanares

Reason: What would've Happened

When haters come to place

Living this life with the guns loaded

ready to blow it,

I stand up and see my self in a mirror,

being taught like a beginner

it all pours into my head like a ringer and sat back down to call it a favor

I stand again with my pistol ready to make a sinner like a fucking winner who cheated

in a game of checkers this is  whats for dinner ready to pull the trigger

I don't give a shit if bitches are dissing you I don't care as Long as you are

coming at me like a missile, 

 I pull the trigger of my pistol!

the motion comes to position as I let it flow 

I'll make you fall with a single blow.

 BAM I called it off like a mother who had her daughter face down and told her

i'll be back just wait for your father,

which he never did so i told her

it's okay i am here to protect you from your deepest fear

no need to shed a tear i'll catch you whenever you fall

and so be there by the phone when i call

Girl when you go

I would  always be waiting right here

just for you to come back home and kiss you

miss you.

This aint a rap this is something I call lyrics 

So theres nothing to it

I just care enough to kill the ones that will hate

I'll make em pay for what they say 

I would also put this 9mm bullet in their heads and hope they had their last pray

This is how I feel when I hate!

Fights, is all they think of

no peace no release no relapse just waiting for the time to past

like a clock with just one hand to put together our brands and pride

we fight together either we are in both sides!

This is how much I care and this aint a lyrics, or a rap this is a poem 

that I could say and brag!

Sorry "Hate just had to change my Lyrics and made it like a poem" 

By :Christian Manzanares

Reason: I thought about my Enemies I made

but still loving you no matter what they do!

Making a heart shape with our fingers

We've been close as friends and closer than other people who you called ex boyfriends.

I taught you much and you taught  me more keep in my mind you are my honey bunch that I adore,

Because I was the first to give you a fixed heart shape figure with just our fingers that were put together.

Girl you are something I called magic and realistic to me even with the world upside down

you turned my frown right side up.

Baby I miss you and sometimes you think everything will be gone but everything will be right here

also our fixed heart we made with our fingers.

I love you for who you are and what you do but everything will be just fine because I have you,

You love me also for what I am and who I was, and also made my smile turn wild when I see you.

All the things I do that were bad, but just understand that it will never bring us apart even if the lights go dark.

You are my everything in my heart wish you knew from the start.

I love you and the past is the past hope we last forever even if the weather is never better I swear i'll lay you down like a feather, and don't forget I taught you how to make a heart figure with our fingers. byes now mwah!!!

By: Christian Manzanares

Mood: Craving for love!

Reason: Listening to a love instrumental and trying to write a song again.

Don't Lie To Me

Please don't lie to me and say that you love me when you actually don't.
If you want another girl,then just leave me because I won't care.
Sometimes I wonder why you even asked me at all.
Fooling me to think you are as sweet as a bear.

I'm not stupid and I'm truly with all this bull shit,
I did stupid stuff but I never lied about them.
I just want to close my eyes and sleep forever,
hoping to wake up in Heaven.

You destroyed me and made me a Wandering Soul,
because you didn't care anymore and you gave up.
I didn't say Life was fair or anything,
Life when not enjoyed sucks.

Now,I'm on my own and I hope you think hard about this.
Because you broke me into a million pieces!!

By:Angelica Mendiola
Mood: ♥ LostInThoughts
Note: I'm not going to let ANYONE step on me and lie right in my face!

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I fELT tHE pAIN

my hearts pounding so hard and so fast
so i stop and catch my breath, at last
my tears still rush down my cheeks
not a sound not a word just watching as it leaks
of tears of happiness? joy? sorrow? pain?
who am i to blame
someone who has done nothing
as my rage grows and guilt grows theres always, one thing
that stops me, love
and i see it in you, you wear it like a glove
on your hands your eyes your emotion
its to hard to describe with this feeling of tension
but when i look and think you were that one person who listened
who was willing to take the pain away while he listened
yet i refuse to let you take it at all
because you are someone i love, and all
the pain i know you would have, i stopped walking
and i thought, he doesnt need all this painful talking
i rather drown in my own sorrow
then have someone take it on and follow
i was someone who gave perfect advise to people in need
but when it came to me, i was cluless indeed
but you were still determine to know the problem
even it hurt you and gave u a bigger problem
cause no matter how much i tried to hide it
you were part of me and you still felt it
dont ever think your not helping when you just listen
but if it hurts you tell me and i'll listen
have you ever noticed something when we hug near dark
you feel that puzzle piece coming finally together and lighting a spark
cause i feel it so much
and when i see you and with that loving touch
i feel as if im safe and i dont have to worry
and all i can keep saying is im sorry
when you have problems i would love to help
i wont ever leave your side trust me i will help
im here for you
no matter what you do
i will always forgive you
i will be there if not literally,
ill just be a phone call away
and i am here to stay

christian manzanares i love you
by: allison madamba
reason: i felt the pain so i felt the reason
11:31pm june 30 2010

♫..christian & allison..♥"

June 2nd 2010 ahh what a day to think about hmm that date 10pm right on the dot not a second too late
i finally said yes yet, to someone who i thought i'd never get
hmm it seemed to early but he understood me
for us too keep it on the low
he told me "deary lets just go with the flow"
a few days past and already, im wishing this relationship would last
i finally told my mom i said"come mom it'll only take a while"
but all she did was hug me and smile
she told me she knew by the way was acting
that she knew everything
i was relieved so i called him and told him
a day later we met for the first time as a couple
he was suppose to find me but instead i found him then me
we connected the first night pretty much perfect
we went to a party he stayed till 11 hmm jus seconds before 11:11
i went home at 2am family was family
a week later we went to the movies,
we ate nacho's popcorn cookie dough and extra cheese
karate kid was great but the end of the movie was my fav
he wanted to show me when the lights turned on,
but it took so long, so we just decided to use the cellphone
he opened a box and he smiled and looked at me
i saw the rings shine back at me,
the lights turned on the movie completely ended
so then i looked at him i smiled hugged him and my heart was mended
a promise ring i said in my head..
i giggled and said out loud"im taking this to bed"
a week later he planed something for me a picnic on the beach
he told me the "chance was in our reach"
i met his parents and happily with his presents
i wasnt that nervous just a lil furious
cause it was was out of no where,
just when i stepped into the car and got there
the parents read my body language and saw i was nervous,
they told me "no need to be nervous its ok dont be nervous"
i smiled and then the mom handed me lotion,
i smiled said thank you and just followed the motion
we got to our destination,oh memorization
june 19th 2010 my first date the best of the best
he cooked for me mhm that tuna sandwich soo yummy
and he bought some snakcs for the craving of our tummy
he was so sweet and cute
hmm did we metion we took pics of our shoes?..
but the date wasnt over, he asked to go to his house "you know just to come over"
i told my mom and she extended her time hmm
then i thought and looked at him and wondered"why was i so blind"
they fed me dinner hmm steak and rice. hmm whoo what a price
then 9pm struck for me to go home so his uncle kroy me and him went to drop me home
the door was locked the lights werent on then i thought"yup, they went to my tita myrn"
so we pass by some store bought chips and drinks strolled for awhile just to think
we finally got to my aunties house, yup he met her too while i fixed my blouse
stayed at my aunties house for 2 hours he called me in between those hours
my auntie and my mom teased me and smiled, it took me awhile
to see yup they know he loves me for me
he was the one who moved my hair out of my face when the wind blew with a stronger grace
wipe the sweat of my face so i wouldnt get sick and lose my pace
he faned me when the power went out so we wouldnt have to get out
i told him stories of my life and he told me his life
i cried and he wipd the tears of my face with the lightest grace
oh did i mention the new change, he cut his hair like last year
hmm and it hasnt even been a year
who would of tot that me and you, could actually be true.
just thinking of evrything,makes me start of from the begining.
where we jus saw eachother just as best friends together,
now its ♥allison and christian always and forever.
so listen mr.waffle, you are someone special.
you've been the one who succeeded in making me smile wen i cudnt,
and making me laugh wen i didnt.
i love u and i miss u.this love is to always be continued.
By: Allison Madamba.
Reason: Just Because I love You.

These are Things that Makes her Interesting

These are the things I like about her.

I like how she teases me when she gets her lips right next to mine

It just gives me the chills in my spine.(Brrrr)

When the day is over and we have to go 

She gives me a kiss that means this isn't the last time.

Sometimes if  we are together alone and right beside each other

she says she cant look at me because she is a shame or not use to it

So I stare and I enjoy the beauty she tries to hide from me.

I love her color changing eyes... wow! she wears contacts so nothing to worry

but it would be cool if it's natural, green eyes in the day, blue eyes in the night

I just cant keep her out of my sight. Madamba Gal!

Allison is her name, my mom always say "whats with all the girls with A's in their first names"?

I say " If dad wants a 'A' and there he gets it". LOL

Well there are more to explore in this girl,

I would love mysteries in this world of hers,

I can't wait to see her again and again!

These are the things I LIKE ABOUT HER!

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: Just thinking of her!

I will just give up poetry...

I cant take the drama and sadness our world gives me,
I don't believe that all this is just to deceive me.
My time for poetry ends now, I am drowning in depression
if only you could help, but you can't because all you did is kill me!!!
I will never forget our times together

I have nothing else to say about you and me just the painful cuttings

you left to scar on my bloody chest.

six feet is my depth when it comes to death you have no words to say

just the last that you kept...

I am giving it up tired of your inspiration in telling me to write some more

I mean really for what? nothing... that's right just keep on crawling

don't stop running because all that follows you is the breaking point for you to be sleeping,

I am tired of you and all this bull sh**t you are nothing but the whispering wind behind my head.

You are nothing now I will just give up poetry that's what I'll do,  so you would know

That you were the one that made me happy... now you are nothing in my poetry.

By:Christian Manzanares

Reason: Giving up Poetry because of you...

Found you/asked you out:  November 8, 2008- March 3rd - 2009

Left me/broke it out: August-January  

Began teaching myself poetry: September 20th 1999

First Poem: September 13th 2001

Took a break of writing poems: December 25th 2004

Was Inspired again to writting poems: November 20th 2008

Gave up poetry for GOOD!!!: Monday, May 31, 2010 10:40pm before I posted this.

You were everything...

Silent Blood Spill

The day was simple

the day was dripping with rain,

I stay calm not knowing that the rain just came

It was a Sunday at the time and  wasn't stopping,

I was alone in my room listening to nothing

just the rain that hits the roof of my home.

I think of my life that is falling into pieces and have this feeling

that I was dying , slowly blacking out in my room with just a little image

I see my left arm cut and bleeding not believing what was I thinking,

I did not know I killed my self... now I know his was my silent blood spill...

By Christian Manzanares

Reason: lonely, Dark

60th Poem

The poems I type are the things I fight,

With my blood and tears that shower me in  fear.

Scared and cold as ice that stings like a bee

I sleep by the time I could not see the  light 

when blind  like a bat,

with only just the vibrations to show me through the dark.

I write my poems on paper and show the world my true heart

I stand tall and think positive when my dreams went, ZIP!

I look into the sky so clearly, not to imagine that this poem is my 60th.

I want to let her know I can keep on going without quits,

there is nothing more scary than a viper that spits.

I will continue on with my poems if you promise to keep me going....

By Christian Manzanares

Reason: I DID 60 POEMS IN LIKE 4 MONTHS

Lonely walk on the beach

Remember the day I kissed you?

Those were the days when we used to keep

our love and  souls in touch.

When we went to the beach it was so beautiful

like the sun that always set when the earth spins into the darkness.

so great and graceful it just makes me want to keep our relationship so peaceful...

NOW... you are gone like a song that ends in just a few minutes

I can't let this happiness of mine to be limited.

I now walk the beaches alone and not seeing you on my side,

empty foot prints  and nothing of your trace of existence

you made it seem that you were never here....

By Christian Manzanares

Reason... Lonely =(

Our Lord and Me Compared

I love our lord

I always loved him,

But times get rough and

Prayers could work.

When it doesn't just keep trying,

He'll be there with you even at the time

he was dying,He gave his life for sins

Just like I did, I gave my happiness

for your sadness.I suffer just to be with you

When you cry that means I have to watch over you,

and you will always be in my heart no matter what 

the causes. If I cry with you I let you know your not the

only one that feels the pain.

So I give you my happiness and make you smile again.

I love our lord Jesus. He is our savior

and he gave us a chance to see heavens gate keeper.

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: I believed in this God and our savior.

Until When?

My Life is a mess

although many think I'm blessed

Maybe not all, of course

But they say it's because of this and that

I tried to be as good as I could be

But I guess I havent tried hard enough

I fake a smile and try to look happy

Sick of all the spoil and the bluff

What else do I need to do,

to turn my life's clouds back blue

I lay on the floor and stare at the ceiling

My heart is aching; the silence is deafening

I've put up with so much

my friends- I've been too dependent on them

I've forgotten how to walk without a crouch

and every day is just a cycle-they're all the same

I'm tired of crying

but at the same time I still cry

fantasies are so much deceiving

the reason for all these, I still ask why...

By: Yunic Anne

My Deaths Rest

I slept calm with no sense of the up coming dawn,

Nights were never my light to see the skies shapes.

the moon was white and have a luminous glow that made me think of the cold hands I have to hold.

My death is near to the beginning of the end so close just so close to my awakening moment.

But I couldn't open my eyes to the light I was yet still blind,

I was left to die in this bed alone,

I tried to call someone I love but never picked up the phone...

I die asleep at home...

Now you know how is it like to die alone,

with no one to say good bye.


By Chrstian Manzanares.

My Untitled Poem

My Sleep went well,

Waking up to the sun

when stars disappear to the other world.

Twirling through the past when death

promise that this will be my last,

My last to say I love you ,and my last

to say good-bye.

I love the world and it's children,

I love you and your warm touch, and

nothing can't stop me from missing you this much.

I never get tired of every conversation we have, and

I remember every moment that led you to cry on my shoulders

when ever I tell you about my past.

Forgive me for my actions and please don't make this a quick reaction,

I am fine now, no blood as not been shed, and no tears has been drained

you are the reason that saved me...

This is my untitled poem... my feelings has been printed on paper so 

always remember that I am part savior.

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: Thoughtful not thoughtless

April 7, 2010

(My Improved poems)

Calling Up The Sun

Night is my time to sleep and dream of the worse, and

The morning is when I awake from the nightmares that kept me scared,

Wake the morning quick! I cannot sleep with this beast,

And I shout in my dreams and I couldn't open my eyes to see!

Wake the morning up!

I shouted out loud to let the sun know

I needed its light more than it can show.

I leap off the edge out of the darkness and fall into the twilight zone

Waiting for the sun to fall into my face.

I rise from my slumber and count my deaths in various numbers

Keeping count of the nightmares that kept me from calling out the.... sun.

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: Nightmare sinks into my head.

March 23,2010

Grandma is Sleeping

My brothers please don't cry,

It's just grandma sleeping in her comfy box.

She is rested so don't be arrested in your own sorrows,

She'll be in our dreams and walk behind our shadows,

and shine in the sun tomorrow.

When our day comes we'll be sleeping in our own boxes too

and be with our relatives who slept pass through.

So don't worry, Grandma is just sleeping and don't bother her. =)

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: Felt the sadness in me.

March 23, 2010

Rested Heart

My Life has been through so much,

so little with lots of puzzles and riddles.

My legs are weak may be  crippled,

I will just make this nice and simple crawl without legs if I have to.

Do the same every day and every week. This makes me sick 

now I cant believe in what kept me going. (you)

Sadness kicks in! it's another thing that keeps my eyes red and wet

now I feel less powerful, and less defended also got me offended.

Love is my final thing to offer both words and physical.

I think it's time to give up all this trouble,

My sick weak heart still dies of this madness

save me... please do save me before my love is less given to the world

keep my promises creed and hold me as my heart is rested 4 now.

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: Tired of Drama

March 20, 2010

My Last Poem

Summer goes on and drops quickly like the sun,

Dawn rises with light skies,

cold mornings are just like summer midnights,

dreaming of the stars and the moon as they light my path in words,

I am sure this poem are my last words.

Keep me close...
as I shiver with fear that nothing can be said clear and 

lead me to your heart 
so blood will continue to flow using mine,

My poems keep me just fine.

Well tears are the issue I have 
but dying is nothing to fear because after 

I die it's time to shine what's right to make another rhyme 
when I whisper to my children

telling them I will  be here and they'll be mine to cherish for eternity .

This is my last poem I swear... 
(Not really)   :)

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: Feeling creative

Dedicated to: friends and all the people I love!

A Poison Tree

I was angry with my friend;

I told my wrath, my wrath did end.

I was angry with my foe:

I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I watered it in fears,

Night and morning with my tears:

And I sunned it with smiles,

And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,

Till it bore an apple bright.

And my foe beheld it shine,

And he knew that it was mine.

And into my garden stole.

When the night had veiled the pole;

In the morning glad I see,

My foe outstretched beneath the tree. 

 By: William Blake

Posted and founded on: March 18,2010

Distant Stars

We were together like the moon and  earth,

we were like souls that found each other.

The day we've met was something that will never turn in reverse,

I thank that person who brought us to convert into one soul.

Since you've left,

my thoughts combined into confusion

the fuse is set and my feelings wait for a conclusion.

Days gone by and nights sits in until the dawn comes again to begin the next day.

we are far now like distant stars,

I can't believe you're far from my heart!

It can't beat anymore as you go on and on leaving me so poor without love,

The night stars who were close to each and one another had finally blew into a nebula.

The sky is lonely without our distant stars, now our hearts will be a long time scar...

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: feeling ashamed

March 18,2010

Green Stuff we Grow

Smoke this shit alive,

Let it burn and die!

It's green and grows so high like the stars

that's above our sky.

Wonders and wonder land and lala land is where you'll be tripping.

Just keep on dreaming and you'll be sniffing our delightful weed thing.

We are getting crunk with all  this junk... oops forgot john in the trunk!

Oh snap the cops are back!

keep this shit in the sack!

Run past la la land and hurry to the escape van!

We roll all day around the world to let other people know. that we love to smoke!

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: Feeeling greeeeeen!

The Unforgiven

I am a poet that lives in a world, with death all around.

I've done various things that I'll never be forgiven.

I kept my promises from breaking,

but until that day of pressure and depression I was left with no choice.

I can't think with all these voices hammering my head,

Nothing was said by my own words,

Just tears dripping down my cheeks.

My heart began to go so deep,

that it finally imploded and didn't beat.

Now I am the unforgiven soul that creeps in lonely walls,

I have no trust, or any  faith at all, I sleep with sober sounds that whisper around my house,

nothing shall make a sound.
I can't sleep with all this madness and regret,

My trust is completely dead,
that person may disappear...

Not a single trace and will never appear.

Keep me close my friends as I come up clear  and listen with your ears to hear me say.

"I love you all for now"... but forgive me for this Unforgiven actions. please. please. Help me please.

 By: Christian Manzanares

To: Her and my friends.

Reason: Tired of this stupid sadness!

Special Someone

Someone to lean on

Someone to love with arms wide open,

You offer a hug

Someone to cry with, laugh with, and smile.

Someone to make every moment worth while when times are getting rough,

and my world falls apart.

You're someone I need

and someone everyone should have,

You're someone who can always show me the brighter side

and I can always tell you what I feel inside.

Someone to be thankful for,

and someone to never forget.

You're someone special I'll always have.

You're the best friend I've ever met =)

To:Me

By: Angela Odoshi

March 17, 2010.

Reason: Heart Touching.