"I NEVER HAD THE INTENTION!"

I never asked life to be so different!

I didn't ask for you too be my stand and stool!

I told you I'll do this on my own!

without you! and with out them to get on my case!

Like ticks and pricks with fucken dicks like shit!

I don't give a shit if you told me not to do this and that 

understand this! I'm serious when i'm pissed!

You saw me smiling before when I was pissed?

well thats my sign I might of killed you in public without hesitation!

Hesitation you ask? I'll give an example!

it includes what I do to you painfully and miserably!

I teach you how to crawl again and make sure you wished you were never born!

Now know this and understand this and make sure you keep this stuck to your head!

Your existence is a waste to life! its best you crawl back to where you digged your own grave!

BY INK-LESS

"I Remember"

I remember the days where we hold hands

I remember the days we sent letters too a friend 

and pass it on to one another!

I remember the days when you needed a shoulder to cry on!

I remember the day you stood by me !

I remember the day you cried by me!

I remembered the day you said Hi to me!

I remembered the day you asked "will you be mine?"

I remember the day and time you asked to be under the stars at night with you.

I remember the past and I'll always make a future to remember the lost memory of our thoughts.

I remember... I just mesmerize thats all I could do besides try to get back to you.

By Ink-less

"MEDICATION!!!!!!!!"

I'm tossing and turning...

Twisting and mentalling hurting, my mind is burning I'm already fucking cursing! 

I hate writing it's blistering and confusing when my hands shake constantly it's hard to do anything without being so clumsy!

Pass the pills I need it to keep me still without trying to break the shield that protects me from insanity!

Pass the medications I need it more than just meditation, I don't care if it kills me as long as I'm still breathing and writing!

Daddy! what can you do to help me?! 

Mommy! what can you do to save me?!

Let me do poetry it's my medication, rhyming is my religion... It ain't a treason to do it for a reason, only killing and hurting other people who stood in front of me and telling me to wallow into my own shadows, now if poetry never existed I wouldn't be that person you see today... so they better pray for their last rites to be standing in my way to say to step down.

The Doctors told me to stop doing what I do because it's over coming  and controlling me, so I grabbed a knife and started stabbing repeatedly without ending my killing spree.  So this is what it means to be a maniac without a trace or a track that plays back to back and snaps because all it does is replay, and say the same shit again!

Poetry is my medicine so don't tell me to stop because I'll kill you with my wicked rhymes and versed-out lines,

that is my prior prime that I stick too every time when I'm about to commit a crime.

Poetry is what I need to keep breathing.

Poetry is what I need to keep me sane.

Poetry is everything I need to find my faith or fate on paths I take.

By: Ink-less

Poetry is my medicine...

"Misunderstood"

I'm a problem, I start the trouble... I don't wait for it, I bring it to the middle of a raining bullet fest.

Yeah you say this and that blah blah I still crack the shells and let my heart explode through my chest.

My heart is bleeding and it's leaking.

I thought I was dreaming but its really killing every pride I had in mind to set my time to shine. 

Yeah I thought you would know who I am.

A beginner. A virgin no matter who I be banging I don't stretch the measures.

I had levers that is my pride to resemble me for happiness and your weight was the pride and you just 

had to sit on it and pull it, Now I kind of lost it.

I'm loosing my hopes too deep and too much that I had to eat a bunch of my words and puke it out into your mouth!

so you could feel sick about it and maybe dream about it and think about it.

Never say because you know I hated the past and I thought it was the last to listen or read it and gasp!

Now I'm calming and slowly realizing that I was the first at something and never thought I would be somebody who you thought was just a noboby, but you gave me something to think that you love me even if your body was touched in so many levels, I understand that you wanted to just love me no matter how different I was to you, because you said I was different, of course I'm different I could of said that back to you because were new.

I love you for everything you've done for me and all that is new to me, I respect your love that you give for me... 

I'm sorry for always being the asshole and jerk that I always had been....

Forgive me for acting and retaliating by drowning you with misery, just remember... never bring shit up like that again...

By: Ink-less

"I will not fall Part3"

I stand to be proud. I was told my voice wasn’t too loud to be heard from a mile.

My words are corroding and eroding from the process of composing these poems for poetry.

I’m losing myself. I’m capsizing and breaking bones till I cannot stand any longer.

I was like a poet who lives as a criminal foreigner; I can’t stand being the outcast fighting his way up to become a dictator.

I was the good weather but when people started sinning and believing that other people will be swimming in the shit they’re shitting.

 I’ll be hating because of this haters being the reason for this degradation low stating.

I’m being truthful because everybody is hearing lies and believing the gossip that’s spreading

And its hurts to be the one in between everything and seeing what it means to be standing and,

Looking up at balconies with people who are spitting down at me.

Right in the eyes and now I cannot see.

But still I can feel my way to a better place, walk like a blind man studying and focusing and understanding where my destiny sits for me.

This time I will not let anyone bring me down and break my bones…

I will not fall!

 By Ink-less

"I will not fall Part2"

Yeah, I live till I die and fight for my right to live this life happily, live until death comes at me quickly or shortly, I've lived my years and I'm still counting!

Till I collapse ya'll be eating my history and dirt that I left in foot prints when I kept running and never planned to be stopping.

Fight until the roof comes off, till the lights go out, till my legs give out, can't shut my mouth, till the smoke clears out and I'm a high as a plane in the sky , and drop until my bones collapse!

I write like an addict I act like a machine with words as fuel that keeps me real.

I shoot like a star and death is like a car racing by my side and I'm just walking past it, sufficate like there's plastic

wrapped around my face gasping for air but I'm still breathing with all the shit that's coming and bringing.

It's simply easy when you know what your spitting.

I ain't scared because I fight until my legs break, I'm living because it's for the people who loved me for their own sake.

Tears mean alot when you smiling and crying and smiling means tears of joy that  I'm feeling.

Man life is amazing when you know what you're doing!

I will not fall, I will stand tall, it feels like death can't beat me... if he does it doesn't been he's winning 

it's just the beginning because I'll be like black people in heaven or hell giving hell in every direction!

Ugh fuck you! haha! that's all I got !

By: Inkless

"When I'm Gone"

When I’m gone, just carry on don’t mourn, rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice.  Just know that I’m looking down at you smiling, and I don’t feel a thang so baby don’t feel no pain just smile back.

Baby, Just don’t go and leave me in the slow lane while you take the fast lane pass me.

Don’t leave me in the dust of shame to let me rot and feel this hurtful pain that sinks deeply in my brain.

Lift me off my feet with a crane and drop me thousands of feet away and hit the pavement.

I regret everything I say when we have an argument.  I love you baby please don’t leave me now.

I feel it inside of me, this love that is insightfully coming up the horizon peeking and whispering at me and telling me not to lose everything I had with you.

What happens then when I’m gone? What happens when I don’t see you for years when I’m gone… I don’t want the trust of love to be gone…

I wanna run for miles just to catch you from falling from the shit you’re going through.

I want you to know I love you so much my dear… and I won’t let anyone or anything tear me in half…

So when I’m gone just know that I’ll always love you and trust you for whatever you do.

By Ink-less

"Wake up to a nightmare"

“Wake up to a Nightmare”

I’m still suppressed with this feeling of being over depress…

Some may see I don’t go through stress but they don’t know that everyone can’t stop living and that’s what it is that bothers me. I can’t stop moving and going through this life until the day I rest on my death bed with my arms across my chest with my hands folded together in between each other.

Still trying to figure out what is the trouble that kept me bubbled in a unfiltered atmosphere.

I was the cause of your pain that had be laid on your mind and now every time I do a little mess, you always tend to clean it up, I love it how you forgive but I just don’t love the way I lie.

I stand here and just watch you burn in the fire, I stand here watching you cry.

But I can’t let that happen, I love you too much to let go or give it up, I’m just letting you know I’ll be on my knees begging you not to go.

Don’t let me go because if you do I don’t know where I’ll go.

I’m buried in deep snow it’s so cold like my heart that slowly breaks apart from freezing, now I’m shot so hard and being thrown like a dart on a bulls eye, so soft hearted now I feel like I wanna cry….

Let me burn in this tragedy. Let me understand what’s really in reality.

Let me Wake up to this nightmare… Let me think it was all a dream…

Let’s pretend I never did anything to offend you my dear, I really fear that we will never last forever.

There is no forever without an ever being together… there is also no never of trying, there is no never of never crying, there is always that time we both started lying…

I want to wake up and see you beside me… hold me tighter, and tell me it was all just a nightmare…

By ink-less

"Life is Deceiving"

Every morning a poet has his own breakfast, lunch, or dinner.

When I wake up to the cold morning I just have coffee and a stick of cigarette.

Smooth instrumentals in my earphones that keep my mind flowing without stopping.

My thoughts run like a marathon without to stop and take a breath keep my pen from dropping.

I already know what’s causing this addiction to keep writing, the motivation of seeing life that looked so gleaming but looks can be deceiving.

Grabbed a mop and started cleaning my act up, but the dirt and rocks made it rough to scrub!

So now I had to get down on my knees and begged for it to come off!

Trusting life and its path, roads and curves with bumps and sharp turns looked so easy to get by without crashing into life and just die without a thought in mind to send the time in rewind.

Now just thinking looks could be deceiving but let us see what life has in its sleeves

so let us cleave it up into pieces and see what it has in store for me to believe.

Yeah…. Writers block got me without knowing it was sneaking behind me.

 By Ink-less

"I am silent right now"

I am silent right now, speechless as I can be…

Tears are not to believe or my words can ever be heard clearly.

I merely can’t say anything because it’s dreary with the wind so empty in my lungs,

I was the cause of such false inequity through the standards of the laws you have given me…

I am sad as a turtle failing to cross the roads and killed by a car that held 10 tons of trust that I have held.

Now it’s lost in single pieces and bits of regret swarming in my bones and blood that is flowing through my head at once. 

Caution signs passing by me quickly and I cannot see right or understand the situation that is coming by and now I regret it…

I did it again twice and I’m sorry I have failed to be a lover and trustful boyfriend to you…

I love you so much… I tell you the truth I never touch em girls or showed love that I always have shown to you…

I don’t want to lose you… :’(

 By ink-less

"Expect?"

Yeah, my heart’s pumping every blood in every vein.

It’s like pain is with me every day, I can feel it but I can’t stop it.

It stings like needles that are infected and used by other people.

It’s not quite simple to solve a riddle that has no clue.

It’s blank like a paper with no words to help know what to do.

Where to go? Where to see and know what else is there to unfold.

I don’t know just follow the road and see where it goes.

Grab a rope and throw it down into a deep hole, and hold the rope tight

Don’t let go you might fall and die painfully without knowing what is killing you so very slowly.

Expect the unexpected… that’s what mommy says.

 By ink-less

"Demon!"

There’s a demon inside of me! Can I kill it?!!?!? HELL NO!

Can I kill it?!?!?!!? HELL NO! The blood is rushing, almost gushing.

My mouth is cussing and now your bones are rusting and crumbling like crust coming when I was done toasting!

I was an Angel now I won’t able to ascend to heaven, now I’m stuck with the Devil!

I’ve reached loud trebles passing over levels now high pitching causing ears to be ringing like rebel bells shining and gleaming.

There’s a demon inside of me! Can I kill it?!!?!? HELL NO!

Can I kill it?!!?!? HELL NO!

My words are rending and now these bitches are standing and waiting for my rhyme that’s pending.

They can’t see it’s not easy to be creating a piece that’s wicked which is the cause of my head to be hurting!

The drugs I’m taking is not for young men to be drinking!

The weed I’m smoking isn’t for you to be breathing!

You try to reach my shit you will lose your dick and it will be hanging on a rack in my shed!

Don’t push me or I will get pushy and roughly choosing each person on my hit list to be killing!

Stop teasing because every word you’re saying will hit Publish Postyour face badly!

Is there a demon inside me? HELL YEAH! So don’t push me!

By ink-less

"Dear Mama Part5"

Mama you were proud of me but when you started seeing me change a bit,

You decided to be more in security! I sat listening to the lectures and hearing your words rupture!

I planned on leaving so I started walking on the road without knowing where to go.

You can’t stop me just let me go!

Let me rot in a pot that’s covered with a brick on top…

Now it’s like our pride started to dim a little with the lights nearly blind,

It was never a crime to let me decide for myself because I’m 18 not a little elf!

It’s time I take my coat of the shelf and walk this path by myself without your help.

Hear me now… hear my whisper…. It doesn’t have to be loud just listen.

By ink-less

"AM I A PSYCHO?!"

Am I a psycho!?!?!?

What will you do if I grabbed a knife and slice, dice, and mince.

Munch and crunch a little bit so no one would know where your body is.

Is it me or is it this? What is wrong with me?

I don’t want to be like shady who is crazy.

He had beef with this Kim lady who wanted to take his baby.

He was the one popping pills and taking them daily.

Just like me and my baby I’ll get a little mazy about simple things, when it was actually me that’s doing stupid things and throwing things around like a psycho!

It’s like a cycle every time I go mental! I’m the stupidest you’ve ever seen.

You know I don’t do shit like this for pleasuring.

I’m not so stable to be able to get cleverly and I know I pull the levers you see.

Baby don’t you see it’s never you! It’s me who is crazy!

If you do, I’ll get a little tipsy and bitchy but I understand you want it equally, I know what you mean.

But see this and know this, don’t mind me if I get pissy just keep doing and ignore me when I get sissy!

I’m the psycho who needs to go!

 By Ink-less