HOw Is It LiKe To Die AlOnE...

Everyday I will always call you just to let you know I am alive and still loving...

Sometime around you wonder why I am sad and crying for no apparent reason;

You wonder why am I crying;

Why is this happening;

Why must one suffer with tears and sighing?

Why haven't you call for weeks and let me know whats going wrong?

The next day you did not see me, you wonder why there are people crying police Driving by heading to my house, you went and check it out, knowing that I was missing...

You run to my mom and told her to drop you to marpi as quick as you can get there...

When you got to the suicide cliff you see me sitting on the rail,

You called my name and I looked back and saw you and my mom looking at me;

I called you over and you sat next to me, and while my mom was screaming at me to get off and I told her to stop before I jump...

You are speechless and I looked into your eyes wondering why you came here and You have some reason why you are sitting here with me.

I pushed you back of the rail behind me and I jumped without you...

I fell alone not letting you know how I felt when I died alone.

This Words you read are just lies, do not wonder through your mind "why did you write this..."

Because I will answer this was my nightmare last year.

By: Christian Manzanares
Production: OnCe LiVeD iN sOrRoW

World And Starvation Cries...

This world is full of hatred,

our honor that was once sacred.


All over the world are so many cries,

everyone here and there full of sighs.


There is not one person with one fear,

every one of them spilling tears.


They shout things at each other that are truly mean,

making a war full of sorrow that would last for eternity.


You wonder why there are people like that existing,

your thoughts always persisting.


If only the power of love can overcome the love of power.


Second by second,minute by minute,hour by hour,

day by day,week by week,month by month,year by year,

sigh by sigh,cry by cry,tear by tear.


There is always a mystery when it comes to life,

always wondering how to spend time.


They murder innocent children,

when will it all end?

So many pray to Him in sorrow and pain,

raining,raining,raining, someone will be stabbed by a blade.


Someone dies,someone dies,someone dies;

by the act of suicide,suicide,suicide.


So much pressure in their hearts,

slowly their soul is being pulled apart.


The Unforgiven is praying for Forgiveness;

so many out there full of bitterness...


By:Angelica Mendiola
Mood:Bored and thoughtful...

"I'm Sorry"

As life goes on;
starting to learn more and more about responsibility,
and I realized what I've done is affecting you love for me.
I'm sorry for the times that I left home
I'm sorry if I did not call home.
I'm sorry for the times I did not know
when you are waiting for me at home...

I'm sorry for the times I would regret;
I'm sorry that I disrespect;
I am sorry for the things I've done;
I am sorry for the wrong thing that had come.

I just hope that my Sorry would just help;
just thinking of how you felt;
just wondering why I've done this to you.
I'm Sorry...
I rather feel sorrow and pain,rather than just die.


By: Christian Manzanares
Production: OnCe LiVeD iN sOrRoW
Mood: sorry and not forgiven...
Date:4/4/09

Smile Today,Cry Tonight.

Every day and all the time, I can't stop thinking of you,
I am addicted to you so deeply,and I can't live without you.

I can't miss a day to spend time with you.
I can't breath by myself,I can't stand by my own,
you hold me all the time,and I always will depend
on you in every moment you give to me.

I smile now and for every day light God gives me.
At night I am hopeless,unless you hold me for the
rest of my life.
I cry at night,when you leave and say good-bye.
I sigh all the time when I see you go bye bye.
I will wait,and will smile the next day.


By: Christian Manzanares
Production: OnCe LiVeD sOrRoW
Mood: lonely and bored
Date: 4/11/09

Live A Life,Die Happy...

I lived a life which changed my vision from the world today,
I lived a life which teared in sorrow,
I lived a life which I was proud of;
I lived and died for a moment...
I came back to life and see the world once more...
I lived this life and see it now in sorrow and
sadness put together with depression leading the pain...
I lived a life which shatter my dreams;
I lived a life and rather die Happy;
Rather than see haters smiling when I cry...
I lived a life and dies happy.

By: Christian Manzanares
Production: OnCe LiVeD iN sOrRoW
Mood: thinking of death...
Date: When I was 13 years old
Secret Poem Found....

Life Chance Was Not A Dream

I had a dream;
I dreamed of kissing you over the sea,
thinking it will never be,and will never be a
dream without you being what you were meant to be.
I see you;
I loved you;
I will be here for you.
I will love unless you kiss me goodbye,when I go home,
and remember the time we first met,and I will
keep you in my mind for the rest of my life

The day I was brought into the world and the world
was touched with a new footprint which was me
who stood on it.

I lived a life that was a nightmare,realizing I was
causing the pain my life,and have driven my self to hell.

I made things backfire,
I made this a reminder.

I had a dream the other year,
It showed me what was my future,so I stepped
forward in my life and saw you in my life...
Life,Death,Sorrow,Sadness,and Tears were just
a imagination; Life Chance was not a Dream,
I tell you...


By: Christian Manzanares
Production: OnCe LiVeD iN sOrRoW