Lost My Friend (What would've Happened)

Dear Friend

I hope you are wandering why I never call

it's just that you were never home when I needed someone

to talk to when I am being abused by all this shit

All those things people say to you 

your just being lied too

I am not okay just remember, you told me that praying would get god to know 

what I am saying 

when I am left crying in the rain with no one to come and say 

It'll be fine when ever you die they would miss you but that shit is a lie

you make me cry... why, why did you leave me in a blistering cold 

with people beating me down like a heartless soul

you made me happy but now you made me crazy

insane and also stupid what the fuck did you do to me!

You were and was my friend just hope my words would make you pretend

that you are happy but you're not just disguising your sad face from the life you enjoy and have

while I sleep in this casket I have....

By :Christian Manzanares

Reason: What would've Happened

When haters come to place

Living this life with the guns loaded

ready to blow it,

I stand up and see my self in a mirror,

being taught like a beginner

it all pours into my head like a ringer and sat back down to call it a favor

I stand again with my pistol ready to make a sinner like a fucking winner who cheated

in a game of checkers this is  whats for dinner ready to pull the trigger

I don't give a shit if bitches are dissing you I don't care as Long as you are

coming at me like a missile, 

 I pull the trigger of my pistol!

the motion comes to position as I let it flow 

I'll make you fall with a single blow.

 BAM I called it off like a mother who had her daughter face down and told her

i'll be back just wait for your father,

which he never did so i told her

it's okay i am here to protect you from your deepest fear

no need to shed a tear i'll catch you whenever you fall

and so be there by the phone when i call

Girl when you go

I would  always be waiting right here

just for you to come back home and kiss you

miss you.

This aint a rap this is something I call lyrics 

So theres nothing to it

I just care enough to kill the ones that will hate

I'll make em pay for what they say 

I would also put this 9mm bullet in their heads and hope they had their last pray

This is how I feel when I hate!

Fights, is all they think of

no peace no release no relapse just waiting for the time to past

like a clock with just one hand to put together our brands and pride

we fight together either we are in both sides!

This is how much I care and this aint a lyrics, or a rap this is a poem 

that I could say and brag!

Sorry "Hate just had to change my Lyrics and made it like a poem" 

By :Christian Manzanares

Reason: I thought about my Enemies I made

but still loving you no matter what they do!

Making a heart shape with our fingers

We've been close as friends and closer than other people who you called ex boyfriends.

I taught you much and you taught  me more keep in my mind you are my honey bunch that I adore,

Because I was the first to give you a fixed heart shape figure with just our fingers that were put together.

Girl you are something I called magic and realistic to me even with the world upside down

you turned my frown right side up.

Baby I miss you and sometimes you think everything will be gone but everything will be right here

also our fixed heart we made with our fingers.

I love you for who you are and what you do but everything will be just fine because I have you,

You love me also for what I am and who I was, and also made my smile turn wild when I see you.

All the things I do that were bad, but just understand that it will never bring us apart even if the lights go dark.

You are my everything in my heart wish you knew from the start.

I love you and the past is the past hope we last forever even if the weather is never better I swear i'll lay you down like a feather, and don't forget I taught you how to make a heart figure with our fingers. byes now mwah!!!

By: Christian Manzanares

Mood: Craving for love!

Reason: Listening to a love instrumental and trying to write a song again.

Don't Lie To Me

Please don't lie to me and say that you love me when you actually don't.
If you want another girl,then just leave me because I won't care.
Sometimes I wonder why you even asked me at all.
Fooling me to think you are as sweet as a bear.

I'm not stupid and I'm truly with all this bull shit,
I did stupid stuff but I never lied about them.
I just want to close my eyes and sleep forever,
hoping to wake up in Heaven.

You destroyed me and made me a Wandering Soul,
because you didn't care anymore and you gave up.
I didn't say Life was fair or anything,
Life when not enjoyed sucks.

Now,I'm on my own and I hope you think hard about this.
Because you broke me into a million pieces!!

By:Angelica Mendiola
Mood: ♥ LostInThoughts
Note: I'm not going to let ANYONE step on me and lie right in my face!

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I fELT tHE pAIN

my hearts pounding so hard and so fast
so i stop and catch my breath, at last
my tears still rush down my cheeks
not a sound not a word just watching as it leaks
of tears of happiness? joy? sorrow? pain?
who am i to blame
someone who has done nothing
as my rage grows and guilt grows theres always, one thing
that stops me, love
and i see it in you, you wear it like a glove
on your hands your eyes your emotion
its to hard to describe with this feeling of tension
but when i look and think you were that one person who listened
who was willing to take the pain away while he listened
yet i refuse to let you take it at all
because you are someone i love, and all
the pain i know you would have, i stopped walking
and i thought, he doesnt need all this painful talking
i rather drown in my own sorrow
then have someone take it on and follow
i was someone who gave perfect advise to people in need
but when it came to me, i was cluless indeed
but you were still determine to know the problem
even it hurt you and gave u a bigger problem
cause no matter how much i tried to hide it
you were part of me and you still felt it
dont ever think your not helping when you just listen
but if it hurts you tell me and i'll listen
have you ever noticed something when we hug near dark
you feel that puzzle piece coming finally together and lighting a spark
cause i feel it so much
and when i see you and with that loving touch
i feel as if im safe and i dont have to worry
and all i can keep saying is im sorry
when you have problems i would love to help
i wont ever leave your side trust me i will help
im here for you
no matter what you do
i will always forgive you
i will be there if not literally,
ill just be a phone call away
and i am here to stay

christian manzanares i love you
by: allison madamba
reason: i felt the pain so i felt the reason
11:31pm june 30 2010

♫..christian & allison..♥"

June 2nd 2010 ahh what a day to think about hmm that date 10pm right on the dot not a second too late
i finally said yes yet, to someone who i thought i'd never get
hmm it seemed to early but he understood me
for us too keep it on the low
he told me "deary lets just go with the flow"
a few days past and already, im wishing this relationship would last
i finally told my mom i said"come mom it'll only take a while"
but all she did was hug me and smile
she told me she knew by the way was acting
that she knew everything
i was relieved so i called him and told him
a day later we met for the first time as a couple
he was suppose to find me but instead i found him then me
we connected the first night pretty much perfect
we went to a party he stayed till 11 hmm jus seconds before 11:11
i went home at 2am family was family
a week later we went to the movies,
we ate nacho's popcorn cookie dough and extra cheese
karate kid was great but the end of the movie was my fav
he wanted to show me when the lights turned on,
but it took so long, so we just decided to use the cellphone
he opened a box and he smiled and looked at me
i saw the rings shine back at me,
the lights turned on the movie completely ended
so then i looked at him i smiled hugged him and my heart was mended
a promise ring i said in my head..
i giggled and said out loud"im taking this to bed"
a week later he planed something for me a picnic on the beach
he told me the "chance was in our reach"
i met his parents and happily with his presents
i wasnt that nervous just a lil furious
cause it was was out of no where,
just when i stepped into the car and got there
the parents read my body language and saw i was nervous,
they told me "no need to be nervous its ok dont be nervous"
i smiled and then the mom handed me lotion,
i smiled said thank you and just followed the motion
we got to our destination,oh memorization
june 19th 2010 my first date the best of the best
he cooked for me mhm that tuna sandwich soo yummy
and he bought some snakcs for the craving of our tummy
he was so sweet and cute
hmm did we metion we took pics of our shoes?..
but the date wasnt over, he asked to go to his house "you know just to come over"
i told my mom and she extended her time hmm
then i thought and looked at him and wondered"why was i so blind"
they fed me dinner hmm steak and rice. hmm whoo what a price
then 9pm struck for me to go home so his uncle kroy me and him went to drop me home
the door was locked the lights werent on then i thought"yup, they went to my tita myrn"
so we pass by some store bought chips and drinks strolled for awhile just to think
we finally got to my aunties house, yup he met her too while i fixed my blouse
stayed at my aunties house for 2 hours he called me in between those hours
my auntie and my mom teased me and smiled, it took me awhile
to see yup they know he loves me for me
he was the one who moved my hair out of my face when the wind blew with a stronger grace
wipe the sweat of my face so i wouldnt get sick and lose my pace
he faned me when the power went out so we wouldnt have to get out
i told him stories of my life and he told me his life
i cried and he wipd the tears of my face with the lightest grace
oh did i mention the new change, he cut his hair like last year
hmm and it hasnt even been a year
who would of tot that me and you, could actually be true.
just thinking of evrything,makes me start of from the begining.
where we jus saw eachother just as best friends together,
now its ♥allison and christian always and forever.
so listen mr.waffle, you are someone special.
you've been the one who succeeded in making me smile wen i cudnt,
and making me laugh wen i didnt.
i love u and i miss u.this love is to always be continued.
By: Allison Madamba.
Reason: Just Because I love You.