Remember December ?

I left with out a life to remember my childhood destroyed in December

born on September never a special day to remember

even if you came to sooth my sorrow

why come back if you were just going to be a chaperon 

thought you had my back!

thought you came to apologize!

but you kicked me down like it was a surprise

left me to cry

you stood right behind

smiling like it wasn't happening!

just left happily

look what 

you created

the mess you started

but never clean it right after

all this bull shit just seems to simmer in the dirt

why run you pulled the trigger like it would be a keeper

called your sister

said you were sorry

but she said clearly all my darling

how foolish you could ever be

keep it sip it

not drop it

let it 

let dreams be it

sleep till my darkest days come to completion

let this suffering be my reason

to step out the door with beaten soul 

I will never be controlled

by a single person

not yet not ever

there is completely no never 

in September on my birthday I was remembered

that the end of December was a newly wedded husband and wife 

who thought to be here forever for life...

I talk to different lives

keep their secrets in my heart

nothing will separate love and power

this is our final hour

here lil baby take this flower...

when the rain comes let the flower shower

for hours...

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: Unknown

A poets heart a thousand miles away

I'm a citizen in a lovely island of Saipan.

Where the beauty lays on the sunset beds

passing by quickly in the day.

When it rains,all we do everyday

on that day was think of the soldiers who are fighting

there way out and come home safely.

See your kids and scream hooray!

Don't let the war get in your way.

Win it and live a happy life,

see the morning as you feel so alive

Walk no path alone.

We feel safe

and no worries here

Thanks to you , you make it better

even if you're there.

You still be in our hearts so dear

and respectfully every single day,

There isn't time to give up faith.

This poem is from a  boy who is a poet,

who sent his heart from thousands of miles away.

Walk into to your child's   room

surprise and what a surprise you give him or her

as they ran and jump into your arms wide open and hugged.

You  gazed into the heavens and say

"thank you for making me see my  children today".

Our hopes and prayers still drip to the sandy dirt's of the unknown lands you were commenced to.

This poem is from me to you.

Stay strong and stand tall!

By: Christian Manzanares

Starlight

so im outside

laying out in the starlight
looking for the star we both pointed out that one night
at memorial in that one spotlight
i actually start talking to that one tiny light
saying how kind and sweet it is how its so bright
do you remember that night
that night he held me so tight
as he whispered in my ear words so right?
do you remember how you that small light
brought and still made everything alright
no matter how dark you still were the only light
to make all his doings alright
so i ask you tonight
to watch over him with all your might
to make sure he sleeps so tight
kiss him with those sparks of light
hum to him the i love you's of the night
and whisper in the wind to him of my love so right
christian i love you tonight
i think of you each and every night
and if you need some light
in the darkess night
just look up every night
ill be that starlight
just to make things feel so right
and ill be with you each and every night
no matter the darkest nights
ill still be there that lil starlight
il be in you dreams tonight
as that spark of light shines so bright
i;ll be that starlight
watching you each and every night
Reason: i miss you soo much and i wish i could be with u everyday and night
To: My BF Christian Manazanares

Your the twinkles of a star

Twinkle twinkle  like a star
up in the dark sky
not to far
your my baby
and part of my heart
Even if I sore
you are mine to adore
through the hardship and through metal doors
we together come by
nothing to be afraid or to be shy
I'm here to make you shine like a star
girl you are my little star
that I wish on every night
you stay where you are
never change sides
nor position
your better as you are now
I don't care if you are far
I'm still standing from a distance and still
hear your heart 
your love is like a kyrptonite
I fall to my knees with great passion
not caring of the dangers that lurks in presents
We wish on each other to last for ever
your my star that twinkles in the sky
your like a diamond in the night
Your lovely shine tinkles my soul
you are the twinkles of a star.
I love you...

by:christian M.
reason: thoughtful to be with you
 to: My GF Allison M.

I Pinky Swear...

date: oct 22 2010
for all those promises we made together

i love you for keeping them cause you make it better

everytime i look at you i just smile,think and tear up a lil

i smile cus were together i think cause i wna keep dat memory and i tear up because im happy that were

almost half way throught the middle

almost half a year together and my love grows stronger n stronger

no matter how much problems come our way we manage to get out of it together

i love you christian i pinky swear that

i still remember that beenie that red hat

its how i found you the first day like that

but even without the hat i could find you just like that

you make my tummy fill up with butterflies

you make my smile because we tell no lies

you make my heart race like that feeling you get after running nonstop but a gazillion enfinite times more

you make me think you make me see the brighter things in life even wen the tears pour

you manage to keep me intacked when no one else could

it may come back a few times but not as often cus i know you would

you would tell me how everything really is and how you love me

remember that promise we had at the beach in fall

i cried and i refuse to let u do it cus i promised no matter what i wudnt hurt u in any way at all

remembe those promises between phone calls and text msgs

remember how we love to finish eachother sentences

you make my life better each and every time i read that letter

of how my favorite made things for me better

but one promise one pinky swear that i always remember

it dangles from my neck every mornig till night till the next day after

i look at it everyday you know the one i can wear on my finger?

i remember losing it once and goin crazy crying looking for it

begging god to help me find it

and i did i cried when my ceramics teacher pulled out of the slip next to the wheel ive always used it

he was doin a demonstration of how you shud check ur slip before applying it

and there he pulled out a lump a small lump

so concious about the ring that i asked without him cleaning it at all if it was a ring

he smiled and i cried and he handed it to me

i put it back on my necklace made sure to look at the mirror n that i was wearing it , me

see that promise was for not only me but us

7 years of friendship seven years n on for our relationship

this ring this promise ring told me everyday that i have someone who loves me

someone i can go to, hold on too ,think about ,someone that loves me for me

someone who takes care of me ,took my heart ,fixed it and loved it ,took my feelings n made solutions

saw my tears n kissed them away ,saw me sweat n wiped my face, someone who gave me a shoulder to cry

or wen i needed my confidence to boost up someone who i can actually say i fell in love with

someone who devoted his time to me just one that someone who made me feel like this

and how lucky i am to have him after years of searching

my favorite my babez my honey bunz my love my sweetie pie my swexay mexi mr waffles XD my everything

i admit i can be nonsense at times irrisponisible ,cautious about myself and get a lil annoying if i over do my cuteness voice..

but i know you understand that and how sorry i am if i do it at times where u just dont wana hear noise

i love you so much christian i pinky swear that

By: Allison Madamba

Reason: got into a lil fyt tonyt 0ct22 n i luked at the ring on my neck n i remembered our pinky swear i love you babez i miss u soo much

Written:0ct 22 2010

Life

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. 

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy, or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song, or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of a daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before becomes fascinating because you know they are important to this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possible soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

- Unknown

founder: Sherish Nestor