My Dream Again

I wake up,
I walk to the mirror to see what is the differ
between me and the man in the mirror
thinking its all just another person with no fingers
But I look closely and see it's me standing no where
in the desert,
Nothing behind me just the yellow sand in my hands
held it tight and it blows away
catching it piece by piece I hold it in with peace
I clutched it deep and tightly
I open it and see nothing
just the wet tears of my eyes and believe it was a dream.
I can't stand the shit that pulls me down to the core
maybe one day I will bring down everybody's door and pull em out
 when they're trap in a house with nothing to do
just sit around and watch whats on the news, well now it ends
it's time to get up and defend your own ground
fight for whats right
doesnt matter if you change the channel it still be the same'
you make the change
don't let this crumble up because this is it what they made
for us to suffer
to much problems
is it already enough we have to bother our own fathers for child support
because we didnt get through school
he said it was a piece of cake
that's him not him being me for me
I went through so much also not like butter, or jelly
just like holding a sweet touch of my baby that's inside of my own girlfriend
I kiss it and say
"there is nothing to fear daddy's here, always will be even
if this world kills us I'll still stand on one feet".
This is what I dreamnt on the 1st month of our relationship...
It was nice made me cry.
I love you.

By Christian Manzanares

Reason: To much thoughts hehe

Not Alone Not Afraid

Hello everybody

I am here to show you wat I be about.

to let the world know I am somebody

who would stand for himself.

Even if the cold world leads to the end  of a curled string,

I still want to sing for my heart and feel the hurricane beat but I cant see

what I have to believe that our world comes down like a dead sea

My mother told she loved me but I can't make a promise because

you trusted me.

please let me be and see what it all means but I am never afraid of the dark

never to scared to fight with my heart.

It's okay baby I am here for you

even if the world comes down on you

I'll hold it up and be the one to bring you

together and up again,

to show you our peaceful earth in heaven

please hold my hand.

Listening to the instrumentals of my favorite rapper 

makes me feel like I could live forever

being not afraid to wake up and see the day

with clouds covering the sun and the rain comes down 

and each rain drop says your name and always think you would be the one

which is true.

I love you for what you are and do

never to afraid if you break it or not

you'll still be in my clutched hands to prevent our world from reaching dawn

Your my sweet one and be the one to keep me from breaking down

so let me know when you need someone to keep close

I be the pillow and you be the tears that spill on the bed sheets of my bed,when

you were troubled and scared to be led alone

never walk alone, i'll hold you and bring you safely home

I hope this poem/lyrics means to you alot Ms.Waffles

By: Christian Manzanares

Reason: missing you

Instrumental: Not Afraid, Eminem

the instrumental brought me into writing this poem for you.

By Iamundergrace from Youtube

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Lost My Friend (What would've Happened)

Dear Friend

I hope you are wandering why I never call

it's just that you were never home when I needed someone

to talk to when I am being abused by all this shit

All those things people say to you 

your just being lied too

I am not okay just remember, you told me that praying would get god to know 

what I am saying 

when I am left crying in the rain with no one to come and say 

It'll be fine when ever you die they would miss you but that shit is a lie

you make me cry... why, why did you leave me in a blistering cold 

with people beating me down like a heartless soul

you made me happy but now you made me crazy

insane and also stupid what the fuck did you do to me!

You were and was my friend just hope my words would make you pretend

that you are happy but you're not just disguising your sad face from the life you enjoy and have

while I sleep in this casket I have....

By :Christian Manzanares

Reason: What would've Happened

When haters come to place

Living this life with the guns loaded

ready to blow it,

I stand up and see my self in a mirror,

being taught like a beginner

it all pours into my head like a ringer and sat back down to call it a favor

I stand again with my pistol ready to make a sinner like a fucking winner who cheated

in a game of checkers this is  whats for dinner ready to pull the trigger

I don't give a shit if bitches are dissing you I don't care as Long as you are

coming at me like a missile, 

 I pull the trigger of my pistol!

the motion comes to position as I let it flow 

I'll make you fall with a single blow.

 BAM I called it off like a mother who had her daughter face down and told her

i'll be back just wait for your father,

which he never did so i told her

it's okay i am here to protect you from your deepest fear

no need to shed a tear i'll catch you whenever you fall

and so be there by the phone when i call

Girl when you go

I would  always be waiting right here

just for you to come back home and kiss you

miss you.

This aint a rap this is something I call lyrics 

So theres nothing to it

I just care enough to kill the ones that will hate

I'll make em pay for what they say 

I would also put this 9mm bullet in their heads and hope they had their last pray

This is how I feel when I hate!

Fights, is all they think of

no peace no release no relapse just waiting for the time to past

like a clock with just one hand to put together our brands and pride

we fight together either we are in both sides!

This is how much I care and this aint a lyrics, or a rap this is a poem 

that I could say and brag!

Sorry "Hate just had to change my Lyrics and made it like a poem" 

By :Christian Manzanares

Reason: I thought about my Enemies I made

but still loving you no matter what they do!

Making a heart shape with our fingers

We've been close as friends and closer than other people who you called ex boyfriends.

I taught you much and you taught  me more keep in my mind you are my honey bunch that I adore,

Because I was the first to give you a fixed heart shape figure with just our fingers that were put together.

Girl you are something I called magic and realistic to me even with the world upside down

you turned my frown right side up.

Baby I miss you and sometimes you think everything will be gone but everything will be right here

also our fixed heart we made with our fingers.

I love you for who you are and what you do but everything will be just fine because I have you,

You love me also for what I am and who I was, and also made my smile turn wild when I see you.

All the things I do that were bad, but just understand that it will never bring us apart even if the lights go dark.

You are my everything in my heart wish you knew from the start.

I love you and the past is the past hope we last forever even if the weather is never better I swear i'll lay you down like a feather, and don't forget I taught you how to make a heart figure with our fingers. byes now mwah!!!

By: Christian Manzanares

Mood: Craving for love!

Reason: Listening to a love instrumental and trying to write a song again.